Right now life sucks. I hate it. It seems so much easier to give up…

Just an hour ago I came out from the loo and stood still. I could not speak or yell or make any sound or move to call for help… I stood leaning towards my left against the wall as my entire right went numb and limp. And I just stared into space…

First the mind screws up… Then there is this body which has a life of its own…

Today I fell … while standing. My body still held on to the wall yet it was fallen. And there was nothing the mind could do.

Reshma was diagnosed with schizophrenia when she was 22. As she says, she didn’t ‘even know what the darn word meant’. In this extraordinary, first-of-its-kind account she writes about her experience of living with therapies and medication, struggling to make sense of her situation, surviving suicide attempts, finding support groups-and finally coming into her own.

Her will to overcome the tremendous odds she faced enabled her to gain unexpected insights into her condition, and her story, told in utterly unsparing prose, is courageous, powerful, eloquent and poignant.